retired bus driver

retired bus driver

Happy Birhtday to ME!

WHAT IS A BIRTHDAY!? LIKE EVERYONE HAS SAID SINCE WE WE'RE ABLE TO SPEAK, IT IS JUST ANOTHER DAY! I SAY IT ISN'T JUST ANOTHER DAY ! YES IT IS JUST A NUMBER, IT MARKS HOW MANY LINES I HAVE, TO THE ACHES AND PAINS THAT I DIDN'T HAVE WHEN I WAS 9 OR 20. THERE ARE THOSE THAT AREN'T AS LUCKY AS I AM, I USE TO THINK I NEEDED CHILDERN OF MY OWN TO MAKE ME FEEL WORTHY , TO SHARE THESE DAYS WITH. I WONDER HOW MANY AUNT'S OR UNCLE'S THAT ARE OUT THERE THAT DON'T HAVE CHILDERN, LIKE MYSELF, I DO KNOW HOWEVER THERE ARE TWO OTHER AUNT'S THAT HAVE NO CHILDERN, THEY ARE SISTERS OF MINE. WE WERE GIVING A LARGE FAMILY TO GROW UP IN, I HAVE FOUR OTHER SIBLINGS THAT HAVE BLESSED MY LIFE WITH CHILDERN, ONE NEPHEW, BLESS HIM HAD TO LIVE OUT MY NEED TO HAVE A REAL COWBOY IN MY LIFE, BUYING THAT ONE IN A LIFE TIME COWBOY OUTFIT, WITH CHAPS AND THE HOISTER, PHOTO'S I HAVE OF HIM IN, I HAVE MY DOUBTS THAT HE REMEMBERS IT BUT I DO, AND THE HEAVY CHAT HIS MOTHER AND I HAD ABOUT GUNS. SHE DIDN'T WANT HIM WITH AND I STATEING IT IS ONLY A TOY! BUT HE WAS ABLE TO KEEP IT JUST NEVER WEAR IT . I DO KNOW HE NEVER KNEW THIS CHAT OR THE REASON HE WAS FOR THAT ONE MOMENT IN HIS LIFE THE REAL COWBOY, THAT A LOVING AUNT WANTED TO DRESS HIM IN AS IF HE WAS HER ONLY SON, I HAVE COME CLOSE TO A LOT OF MY NIECE'S TOO. THROUGH THEM I HAVE KNOWN A LITTLE WHAT A MOTHER WOULD, BY BEING THERE WHEN THEY FOUND OUT THAT THERE WAS A LUMP IN THEIR BREAST. TAKING A DAY OFF OF WORK TO BE THERE WHEN THEY TOOK THE LUMP OUT. SPENDING HOURS ON THE PHONE GIVING AS MUCH SUPPORT AS ONE COULD , OR HEADING OUT ON A WORK NIGHT , OR EARLY MORNING WAS IT , WHEN THIER CAR SEEM TO FINALLY MAKE ITS LAST SPARK PLUG SPARK ! OR OFFERING THE MONEY TO THE ONE TIME SPEEDING TICKET. I MAY HAVE NEVER HAD THE CHILDERN THAT SEEM TO MAKE UP WHAT MANY WOULD SAY IS A WAY TO BE HAPPY , BUT I AM BLESSED WITH MANY, I COULD BE THE AUNT THAT WOULD GET THAT FIRST EAR PRIECE ( NEPHEWS) OR THAT TATTOO ( NIECE) AND EVEN IF THIER PARENTS WOULD SO DISOWN THEM THEY KNEW THAT THEY HAD AN AUNT THAT WOULD KEEP THEM, ALLOW THEM TO LIVE WITH HER UNTIL THE FIRE WAS DIMMED. IS THERE A SENCE OF NOT HAVING MY EVERY OWN, IF I TOLD YOU NO , I WOULD BE LIEING, I WILL NEVER KNOW WHAT IT'S LIKE TO HOLD MY CHILD AFTER JUST GIVING IT LIFE, THAT FIRST BREATH, I WILL NEVER KNOW WHAT IT WILL FEEL LIKE TO HAVE A DAUGTHER TO SHARE THOSE MOMENTS THAT EVERY DAUGTHER HAS WITH A MOTHER, OR IN MY OLD AGE TO HAVE MY SON OR DAUGTHER COME VISIT OR SHARE THOSE TIMES THAT SEEMS TO BRING THE WHOLE LIFE CYCLE IN PLAY, WHAT I DO HAVE IS NEPHEW'S THEIR WIFE'S AND NIECE'S THAT HAVE TAKEN OUT OF THIER BUSY , WORRYSOME LIFE TO STOP AND LEAVE ME HAPPY BIRTHDAY COMMINTS, EVEN THOUGH AM FAR AWAY FROM THEM , THAT HAVE MADE MY DAY, MADE THIS AUNT FEEL VERY LOVED.IN THE END HAPPY BIRHTDAY TO ME! BECAUSE OF ALL OF YOU , GOD HAS SO BLESSED ME . YOU ARE THE GIFTS THAT DO KEEP ON GIVING , AND JUST THINK SOME OF YOU I DID UNWRAP YOU BY CHANGING YOUR DRIPPERS AND THROW UP CLOTHES .............;)